7 Days to go

(Angels and Airwaves - Rite of Spring)
 

In one week from now, it will be one year since I turned single again. I do not see any use in celebrating that at that time. It seems weird, celebrating that you once chose to start on something that would cost you so much time and energy. It is weird to celebrate something which can only be explained as a failure of many many decisions I myself made.

Instead I can commemorate the reasons why I woke up. I stopped worrying. I stop worrying, and I stopped analysing. Ironically by then I am probably the only person who read the messages of that time. Which is how I wanted it in the first place. What I didn't wrote anywhere else, but decided a year ago. Was that was going to be single for a whole year. Unless I met the woman of my dreams, and she liked me for who I am.

Naturally that didn't happen. Sure there were women who were nothing short of my dreams, but they didn't like me. And there were several women that liked me for who I was. But the feeling wasn't mutual. In the end, I am not going to change the criteria I had. But I do think I am a little bit more open for trying. 

So what did I learn? A lot actually, I learned who I am, what I want, what I can do, and what I want to do. In short this single year was the best thing I could have done for myself in a long time. I have grown as a human. And here comes the best part; I can start being myself again. It isn't that I was someone I was not. But I wasn't always open with who I was. Why? Cos I think you need to be very patient if you want to be in a relationship with me.

Cheers everyone,
F