Drop, kick and run

(Adele - Rolling in the deep)

I keep wondering, what it is that makes a drop feel like betrayal. If someone doesn't want to do any work or even try to prevent the loss of something great. When they just cut their losses (yourself) and run away hard. Not thinking about things and resorting to partying to get their mind off of things. Why does it feel that the trust is completely gone, not because things were done that were untruthful. But that the love that was once there, has been made to appear by actions done, to be completely worthless?

I am inclined to say, that it is not betrayal. As we all assign our own value to things in life. And I just assigned a lot of value of mutual love. But I am not sure what is worse. Betraying someone, or letting them know that you simply don't value love the way they do. As it beckons the question; did you really want to give the impression that you, as a person, are perfectly good to go for sex (by random people). But that you are not worth the love? (as it is not valued at all)

What hurts the most is knowing that I have given my best and most honourable to someone who values it less then many daily things. And because I have always been honest and open about it, it makes it feel like betrayal, simply because it was disregarded so easily. I expected someone to be better, when they were simply as superficial as the rest. And I guess, for that, I blame myself. I could have known, I could have seen, but I chose to ignore because I was fed up with thinking the world couldn't value things that are really worth fighting for.

But the people of the world can't see what is worth fighting for. And it reminds me of a set of lyrics from a popular Dutch song: 'Waar de liefde van de lust steeds maar weer zal gaan verliezen. Omdat ze nooit kan kiezen, tussen goed en niet zo kwaad' Translated: 'Love will always lose from lust, because she (love) cannot choose between good and not-so-bad'.

It saddens me to be, once again, proven so hashly that people always choose the easy way out. To choose quick gain like lust, money and happenings. Over love, achievements and true experiences. The world is seriously fucked up people. Stop choosing the easy way out. It will not make you more happy, and you will only cause more misery in the world. So contemplate, not what you think you should want, but how your actual actions show you to yourself and to the world just what you deem is worth to you. Don't become someone that sells themselves and the greater emotions in life, because they think everything should come easy.
And once again, I reach to the same motto, which I might attain myself too:

Nothing in this world that is worth having comes easy.